i just wonder, what are u gonna do to someone that u love so much..ur family, friends or lover..

i have family but sometime i want stay far away frm them, actually i always want it happen even i know i dont want it..i have a lot of friends but its hard to make good one..
lover??i dont want talk bout it..its to complicated!!hard to explain..

i love them so much and i always think, if something happen to them i will get their back..
if they need me i will be there at least i do my best to get there..
if they want get rid of me..one thing i should do is stay away from them till they want me back or never..
i try my best to get everything right and in the right way!!even i know i ussually cant make the good one..

i just wonder who's gonna take my back??i thought nobody will do..
nobody care what i feel about..what life i can make, not even what things i gonna do..
nobody cares if im angry, sad,cry, feel disspointed or even "suicide" maybe..

sometime i love this life and want to enjoy it for a while..but life makes me sick..sometime it makes me to hate it!!

i dont know whats wrong with me..everything near me, someone who i love or something..i just make it worse than before..im always ruin it..

patheatic..ironic..what else i can say??sometime i've been so sarcastic..
i try to make my life seems brighter..can i do that??
i try to make my life easier, not complicated like i life in it..but i dont think i can catch that things..its like so far away from me..

happiness, fun, good life..who think i deserve for it??or maybe i dont deserve it right away..
nobody know me, never better..
im just pretend that im alive..thats it!!!

its good to pretend but im lil bit tired to be pretend anymore..should i do it more longer??

i cant even answer it by my self..who cares huh??