thx to god, that he give the miracle happen..maybe now im as human will start and think egois again.. sometime i dont one miracle just happen once..always want more and want the easiest way in life to handle everything..

i dont know, can i solve all my problem??my problem of life, about how hard this life play on me..i dont know what is god plan this time..but everything is related one to each other..

problem every problem i can pass, like i never found the end of all the problem..after i pass one problem, there is another problem come up in front of my eyes, and it hide between my bed.. make me hard to go to sleep and always think about it..cant stop thinking, cant stop wondering and always make new plan..try to keep moving and solving the problem that never end..

the other day, start thinking and wondering making planning for next term of time but it like my plan not gonna work at all..when all the plan look so perfect, have no trouble but suddenly it boom when problem come..all my plan ruin again..and must start it from the beginning again!!

but now i cant find any way to solve problem, and now problem already have plan for me for next month, and i still cant solve the previous problem..i dont know what is behind all the problem that god create for me..to break me into a piece or to give me a lesson that life is not easy like we thought..or every problem have their own meaning..but can god create the way when i cant solve the problem??or i just hoping and wishing about miracle again..like i just life with the miracle in my life!!

i dont know what way he want to show to me..and im speechless, clueless, and i almost give up to find all the problem solving..but i cant give up and i wont give up..im trying and tryin..hard to believe but that is life..when u run from problem and u cant solve it, u will run forever and blame about this life..i dont want run from problem and trouble..even i know its hard to face but it harder if u run from it..it seem so messed up with ur head..not just hiding under your bed..

god, i wont ask u about miracle all the time, but please lead me to the right way..guide me to the way that u want to show me..but if i cant find any path please that is the time u need to show miracle..

keep the path in my head, solve the problem that i ever had..
keep move on with my life, with all the past that keep me wake, to find the truth..
give me strong, dont let tears come up from ur eyes..it tore my heart so bad..