i just remembered about blog "two thing always make connection and cant be separated, and always eternal like that" that i ever wrote..

when i realize love and hate, faith and doubt, truth and lies, trust and distrustful, long and close distance..
love and hate..always be like that!!but u will realize ur love is bigger than hate!!

i dont know why LOVE always makes me cry..
when i hurt someone that important to my life and i will cry..
when they hurt me, i will cry..
but when u hurt someone that u really love, you will feel horrible and tortured and want to take the time and want take all back..
in the other way, if someone that you love hurt u, tortured you, you will become so patient and wait even your heart crying but not even more than u hurt someone that you love..

i remembered when one of my friends in university ask me about his girlfriend, why his girlfriend told him " you the one who can make me laugh and cry in the same time" he become so confused and thought he done something bad to her girlfriend..
and that time i told him: "should all the tears come when u sad??even we know we crying because we sad or angry..but tears could come when we feel the joy and happiness..not always sadness can make us cry!! tears of joy that i called them.."

this time i will write about LOVE which always can makes me cry in sad way or either in the happy and joy..

too many things i already passed through..bad and good things and i always look of them and take the advantages..
but when i look of the bad or good thing, love is the main character that affect all of the things mostly..

i cant tell who's life that really makes me cry, you can guess, this is mine or the other people..
i really hate being cheated..cheated by my family, friends, lovers or anyone..
who can stand with lies??nobody cant..everybody want the truth!!
but behind the lies that is the truth, can u imagine that??
u lies to someone because u want show the truth to someone..
working really hard and always said "i have no problem at all dear, i can handle everything and i already finish the stuff that we must finish" but in the other hand the stuff not finished yet..u need work really hard and sleep less to accomplish everything until the truth spreading and you will feel u have been cheated..but in the other hand she want to prove that she really love you and want the best for you, she didnt want you know because she worried it will become your burden and she doesn't want to put any burden in your shoulder..
thats why i said loves always makes me cry...

when you can feel the joy and happiness, you cried
when you been hurt, you cried
when you cant protect someone that you love, you cried
when your lover prove her love to you, you will cry even more!!

love is need sacrifice, no matter what kind of sacrifice that you made..
sacrifice in every single time you made will show you the truth of love, when you really want safe someone that u love, protect them from their last breath..hold them and crying out loud, you want make it become yours..one last breath!!!
and suddenly you realize that you want stay together with them and being happy, do anything that they want, accomplish every single promise that you made for them, you will feel more alive when they still breathing and can do everything together..

you will think, when they are with you, you always feel free like wind that always been anywhere and everywhere..and you will feel fly with your freedom and care about them..even everything that you pass through will bring the tears to your eyes you want to do anything with them..
real love, true love that i've called it always been egoist but actually there is no egoism between love..you will feel more and more love that they give to you..its not about who is right who is wrong..its about the feeling, you will not feel that you've been hurt even they feel they hurt you..maybe u feel being hurt but not as much as you feel being love..sometime love is hurt..love is equal to tears..love is warmth that you feel and you shared with other people..love is understanding and faith also the sacrifice..lies just become little part of it..to make your love being more important!!
tears will always become the result of it..true love will bring lot of tears for the joy and happiness..
your day will always been complete when you see them beside you when you awake, just want them to be happy..you will never get bored with that until whenever..
and you will always feel tears in your eyes..
thats all i know about it!!!